As many people have pointed out to me over my life, I can be a bad listener - too consumed with telling the next anecdote or making some point or another. I know it's a flaw, and yet I've really never been able control it as much as I'd like to. I know I'm better than I was as a callow youth of say, 25 or 30, but still, I could do so much better. I think it may be helpful if I frame the problem properly.
Really, being a bad listener boils down to a lack of respect for other people, I think. Ego, pride, laziness, caffeine overdose, ADD, whatever, it's a lack of empathy for how the other person experiences the 'conversation' (or 'monologue' in my case sometimes). And if you can manage to remind yourself that this is a Bad Thing, maybe you can re-inforce some more positive habits - thus this post.
This has been brought to my attention by two different friends in the last day or so pointing out that I had completely not listened to them. In both cases, we'd been talking, and in once case my friend said 'did you not notice that I mentioned that three times in the last 5 minutes?' and really, I'd been so wrapped up in telling a story that it simply hadn't registered. The other said something to me that meant one thing, but I had wilfully interpreted it in a way that I liked more, which caused confusion and awkwardness when I then acted as if they had meant it the way I thought.
In both cases, that's disrespectful, and violates the duty to treat others as persons, not mere sounding boards or echo chambers - either the Golden Rule of doing unto others, or the Kantian 'treat others as ends not means', as you like. And that's failing to be a friend, because someone may be looking for help, to talk, to calm down, to kill time or whatever - and to treat them as if they only existed to listen to YOU is a denial of friendship, it's a
denial of their essential importance, and it's shameful to do that to anyone, least of all a friend. Everyone deserves respect, and being a bad listener fails that.
So maybe this little self-rant will remind me to be a better listener - to allow others to say their piece and to try to *hear* what they're saying and not what I want to hear, or to ignore them totally and impose my monologue on them.
Here's to being a better listener in 2011 and a better person for it.